Roaccutane: Medication for the skin, pretty much an almost pure form of Vitamin A.
That tid bit was for the comments on my last journal.
And yeah, I know about the depression thing. If anything it's making me feel bi-polar rather than just depressed. And more attention seeking. And my lips are more chapped than usual :P
On the plus side it's making me a lot more friendly! During Beauty and The Beast (NOT including the party) I was way more touchy feely than usual, because i felt so comfortable. GAH. I love production time.
Yes so anyway i'm on it. Have been for like... 3 weeks or so. I've been more chirpy, and more bouncy, however when i've been left alone for like... hours... or when i'm at work and i don't see anyone i know all day (outside of my work partners) (and i realise the irony in what i just said) I get really just... down. like... I think more about things like "Wow, this summer it'll be 4 years since jamboree" And then i'll start thinking about Amanda, Rhiannon, Caitlyn, Zanara and insert name here that I can't remember off the top of my head. Go Onyx team 8. And this just makes me so sad, because I sent letters to them all after camp and I never got one single reply.
Oh wow. I managed to turn this into a real post.
Erika: I'M MIND BLANKING. THIS IS HORRIBLE I MUST BE SO OBVIOUS WTF MAN.
and that is all i have to say... about that.

I just downloaded David Hasselhoff - Get in my car.
I am officially awesome.

My life... this year. Is so... fucking horrible. gigwise.
Snow Patrol: SOLD OUT D:
Evanescence: r18. And no adults are willing to pay to go with me. I was going with Sonja and her dad, now we're both looking for a way to get in. 'Cause her dad's going to Indiaaa..
Fall Out Boy: On my mum's birthday, so I have been told that I am not allowed to go.
Groove in the park: Never organised anything. Or got myself organised. I blame myself personally for that one.
Killerfest: I was actually looking forward to... as a kind of... fuck I can't go anywhere else so yay. Ended up being a complete bust. I wanted to dance so bad the whole time. But It was just so... iafjhdis.
Big Day Out has been very good to me.

So I am having the worst luck this year. Which inst a very good sign for the rest of it...

More from me, lol.
Riiight... So Evanescence is coming to New Zealand, yes.
And... there had been rumours about it being R18. And to me this was blasphemy because it's like... no. Seriosuly, am I like destined never to see them live?
And I found out yesterday that they are in fact... R18.
I spent a good 2 hours bawling my eyes out.
But apparently everyone found this out when we were still at the bach.
So. WHY didn't they tell me then? I have no idea. According to Heather thats why everyone 'stopped and looked at me'. But that happened A LOT  on that trip. So I assumed I had said and/or done something wrong, AGAIN.
So not only am I as upset as HELL. I'm also pissed off.
Its unfair. And I want to break something. And hurt someone. And I don't reccomend talking in a negative way, about Evanescence and/or my love for them. Or is it a FAKE LOVE? HUH? FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I HATE the world. it's a strong world. But I HATE everything right now.
I'm looking for a relative of sorts that can take me. Jasons GF is going. But she doesn't like me. My Aunt/Her BF/My Brothers don't like them near enough to pay $80 for a concert... my dad doesn't like them. My mum... just no... My Nan... Well, I just don't know.
So... Manda suggested something. And i'm quite on the go for it. Because... she know's how desperate I am for them. And If all else fails... god.

Who wants to be in a filter of patheticness?
When i'm upset of feelingpathetic and want to vent about WHY, will be the main reason for the filter.

Just offering..

I find it funny how my first actual post (on this journal) is like... a meme.

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post lyrics for the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
( Marry me Marry me )